Chapter 1 See You Soon Jaime..

Chapter 1

I will never forget the look in her eyes as she took her final breath. It was as if she knew and understood everything. That wasn't what got to me though. It was her final words that struck me to the core. She looked at me with her soft brown eyes and whispered, "It is written John. It always has been."
Then she closed her eyes and I lost her forever. Those first few months without her were hard. She had been my light guiding me through the darkness, Without her, I was broken, lost, and alone. I don't know how many days I spent wallowing in my room, and her funeral had sent me over the edge. I still couldn't except the fact she was gone. The image of Jaime, my Jaime, lying cold, dead, and lifeless. That image still haunts me to this day. I don't think she would have wanted it to be like that. She would have wanted me to remember her alive and happy, with me. That year was filled with tears. The times were tough but, it reminded me of how we first met.
I had known Jaime since third grade. We were friends and even dated in grade school. I had got a big head and treated her wrong. She broke it off and I blew her off. I loved her for awhile but then started to falling for Belinda. Belinda was a flirt and I should have known better. It was about seventh grade when I became the cool kid. About eighth grade I had the walk, talk, and just about everything else down. But I was too stupid to see the way Jaime still loved me.
Jaime was well liked and grade school but in Junior High, people began to discover there had to be a chain of command. The girls would never admit that they were jealous of her natural beauty. She became an outcast and I enjoyed her pain.
Time went by and she began looking at me with pity. I began to become angry. I remember spending hours trying to comprehend why she took pity on me. I had everything. I was so disturbed by the ordeal that I confronted her about it. "What's your issue?" I asked angrily.
"Issue?" She looked at me confused.
"You look like you feel sorry for me. Why?"
"You don't have faith."
"What's there to have faith in?"
"Everything."
"Like what?"
"Is there wind?"
"Well, yeah."
"God is like wind, I can't see Him but I can feel Him and I know He is there."
"What do you feel, Jaime?"
"Everything you don't."
That made me so angry. How did she know what I felt? I didn't know it then, but I was about to be pulled out of the black hole called "my life" ans showed something so much better. Hope.

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