Pop Waffle.. SO TRUE!!!

Deep Awakenings

I feel sad. I am always alone. My parents always go together shopping. Never bringing me along. None of my friends ever seem to be home anymore or don't keep their promises to call. I am alone. I hardly ever do anything right and never seem to be able to live up to the expectations set up by my parents. Though it is almost always at a constant shine in California, I wish it would rain. When it is a nice clear blue sky day. I want the sky to be dreary and gray. I want to move to Washington. Not because of Twilight. I love the rain and the cold. I like to be left alone but I want someone to fight to be with me. I am not in love. I want to be. I used to be. Mixed feelings stir on days like this. I want someone to climb to my secret hideaway and just be with me. I want to escape to a faraway place. I want to sit on beach by myself and watch the tide roll in. I want someone to know when to hold me and when to take me away from it all. I guess I am what you call a lost soul looking for a home. No one could tell though. I put up a disguise as a spunky individual always ready to goof around and imagine. But really if you looked through my eyes you could see the brokenness of my heart. I want someone to walk into my life and pick up the pieces, but for now I am waiting for the hope. I guess you could call it feelings that I shared with no one till the built up so high I couldn't hold them in any longer and broke down. All I am is a broken down piece of work. I am just waiting for the mechanic to come fix me. But till then I will wait for the one meant to save me from myself. I want to know who I am. But the harder and harder I try to find her. The further away she slips from my grasp. I am starving for attention. But when I get it I want it to go away. But for now I am a window not yet a door.

The Call by Regina Spektor

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
Till it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Till they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye...

First Day of Winter!!

Lots of exciting things happened today. Because I am so fawesome, I went to Gabby's family reunion. At first I was nervous because I only new like three people. It actually went really well. Two of her cousins, Jason and Matt, were really funny. When we were doing the gift exchange we made a human pyramid. I got stuck with Jason's feet. He had cool Vans though.. LOL. Then Jason's sister was on Gabby's team and Matt was on mine. We attempted to play volleyball. We were all pretty tired. I watched Andrew and Regan. They always wanted to go higher on the swings. They are a pain in the rear but, I love them. Then Matt and Jason thought it would be funny to play keep away with me and Gabby. That was a lot of fun. We were falling all over each other. I secretly thought Jason was cute.. I totally think Gabby could tell. She just laughed. She used to have a crush on my cousin.. So, eh. Whatever. Everyone had to leave though. I was kind of sad because I wouldn't see them for a long time. Not for a few years at least. Unless Gabby asks me to go to the New Years party.. I doubt it though. She is going to Texas on my birthday. So she wouldn't even be there. =(


“[The Shepherds and the Angels] And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord.”
Luke 2: 8-11

His Favorite Christmas Story by Capital Lights

The saddest, most beautiful song ever!!!

A Beautiful Saying

The best part of beauty is that which no picture can express.

2nd Softball Game Tomorrow!!

I don't have much to say today. Tomorrow is our 2nd softball game. Our 1st game was great! We stomped them! The score was like 18-0. Very, very sad for them at least.. Totally sad. Anyways our school isn't that ghetto anymore because we now have *gasp* visors! wOO! Sci-Fi time now. I've always wanted a dumb black hat with a green C on it. Seriously.. They need to get out more.. We might as well have poker hats!


Therefore the Lord himself will give you a sign: The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, and will call him Immanuel.
Isaiah 7:14

Gotta Be Somebody by Nickleback

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we're meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holdin my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I spend forever with

Chorus

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There's gotta be somebody for me like that.
Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
And damn it this feels too right
It's just like Déjà Vu
Me standin here with you
So I'll be holdinmy breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I spend forever with?

Chorus

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There's gotta be somebody for me like that.
Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

Ooooooh,
You can't give up!
Lookin for that diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you're holdin on
Cause it could be the one,
the one you're waiting on

Chorus

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.

Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there

Circus by Britney Spears

There’s only two types of people in the world
The ones that entertain, and the ones that observe
Well baby I’m a put-on-a-show kinda girl
Don’t like the backseat, gotta be first
I’m like the ringleader
I call the shots
I’m like a firecracker
I make it hot
When I put on a show....


I feel the adrenaline moving through my veins
Spotlight on me and I’m ready to break
I’m like a performer, the dancefloor is my stage
Better be ready, hope that ya feel the same

All eyes on me in the center of the ring
Just like a circus
When I crack that whip, everybody gon' trip
Just like a circus
Don’t stand there watching me, follow me
Show me what you can do
Everybody let go, we can make a dancefloor
Just like a circus

There’s only two types of guys out there,
Ones that can hang with me, and ones that are scared
So baby I hope that you came prepared
I run a tight shift so, beware
I’m like the ringleader
I call the shots
I’m like a firecracker
I make it hot
then I put on a show

I feel the adrenaline moving through my veins
Spotlight on me and I’m ready to break
I’m like a performer, the dancefloor is my stage
Better be ready, hope that ya feel the same

All eyes on me in the center of the ring
Just like a circus
When I crack that whip, everybody gon' trip
Just like a circus
Don’t stand there watching me, follow me
Show me what you can do
Everybody let go, we can make a dancefloor
Just like a circus

Let's go.
Let me see what you can do.
I'm runnin' this (like like like like a circus)
Yeah.
Like a what? (like like like like a circus)

All eyes on me in the center of the ring
Just like a circus
When I crack that whip, everybody gon' trip
Just like a circus
Don’t stand there watching me, follow me
Show me what you can do
Everybody let go, we can make a dancefloor
Just like a circus

All eyes on me in the center of the ring
Just like a circus
When I crack that whip, everybody gon' trip
Just like a circus
Don’t stand there watching me, follow me
Show me what you can do
Everybody let go, we can make a dancefloor
Just like a circus

Scarred For Life..

As I said earlier we are re-doing the floors. So we had to take out my brothers toilet.. And I had to scrap up the poop that was mixed with the wax down under. It was disgusting. Then I had to stick my hand down into the hole and pop out the rubber lining. It was disturbing.. Let's just say it was humbling experience.. I will never look at a toilet the same way..

Inspirational Quote:
One must desire something to be alive. --Margaret Deland

The Monster From Down Under..

Now a title like that grabs your attention doesn't it? Yeah.. Well we are getting our floors done over the next few days which means my brother, who normally lives down stairs, is now moving upstairs for a few days. Yeah sounds fine doesn't it? He has to share my bathroom and my brother is an absolute pig! The sad thing is he is proud of that. The bad thing is my mom gave him my sheets to use. The problem is he has herpes and I can never use them again. SUCKS!! He also took the liberty to unhook my Xbox to watch T.V. Ugh! I am so mad now.. The only thing that I have left to claim is my computer.. I put my foot down on that one. He is not allowed to use it all. So my computer is my salvation. At least for a little while.

“Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies;”
John 11:25

I don't know. It's Just My Thing..

Ello! Bet you missed me.. YOU SHOULD!! Anyways you may have noticed we have a new contributor to this fantabulous blog of mine. His name is Tenacious. Be nice to him or I'll find you, and as Ian likes to say.. Eat your face! That was random.. And weird.. Random and weird. Wow. I just reached a new level stupidity.. So I made the soft ball team as you all know. We got our jerseys today.. And I got my lucky number.. 13!!! I am super happy. I have always wanted that one. My friend apparently visited my blog and called me a nerd. Do you agree with that? I do only beacause I am a good student and I like cetain things.. Which make me stand out from others. That isn't bad it just makes me unique. Which I love. So seriously people if you have something that makes you different or special, RAISE YOUR VOICE!


“[The Son Superior to Angels] In the past God spoke to our forefathers through the prophets at many times and in various ways, but in these last days he has spoken to us by his Son, whom he appointed heir of all things, and through whom he made the universe.”
Hebrews 1:1-2