Feelings (Great, I Know..)

Have you ever felt like your friends have suddenly abadoned you? Like suddenly you've been replaced? Like you were gone for one day and you were completely detacthed from everything you knew and were comfortable with? And that your normal tormentors have kicked it up a notch? And suddenly you just maybe don't feel worth much anymore? That is exactly how I feel right now. I just think I need to rely on myself now. Normally, when Alex, Zach, and Timmy torture me in Algebra I, I react by either yelling at them to stop, being sarcastic, and hitting their hands away from me. Today, I just ignored them and that seemed to encourage them more. They would say things like I think you're ugly or, eew do you have a zit? I just chanted to myself, "Breathe and Believe". It actually helped me. Yesterday my dad bought me a bikini, but I didn't want to wear it because lets face it. I kill myself with modesty. After I put it on though to at first please my dad. Then, I saw myse aboutlf in it. I am really insecure about my looks. I actually liked myself in it. It made me feel more comfortable with myself. I don't know who I am going to talk to now at school. I feel like sort of a loner. I just don't understand why people are so mean. I feel alone. I guess that is just the way the world works sometimes. I wish the person meant for me would come soon. I have a feeling I am about to hit my ultimate low.

Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Ephesians 4:32