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Wildfire. ♥

Iridescent by Linkin Park

Theme Song for the blog.. ♥


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There's A Reason To Everything I Do.

ir·i·des·cent

   /ˌɪrɪˈdɛsənt/ Show Spelled[ir-i-des-uhnt]

–adjective

1.

displaying a play of lustrous colors like those of the rainbow.

 

 

The new blog name has become one of my favorite words and songs. I heard this song while watching Transformers 3 with my bestfriend/boyfriend. I think, it describes life. People are so lost without God, and He's just standing there with his arms spread wide open, saying, "Come home darling. Run to me. I'll heal your hurts."

 

And He does, oh my God, you heal our hurts. He will always be your bestfriend, the one you can tell your secrets to, and the one that will never stab you in the back. He is Daddy. 

 

I recently just returned from a camp, Pondo, to which I have attended every year since I was nine. Well, every year I learn something new from this, almost seeming magical, place. This year.. I learned to let go.I made mistakes this year, and I was letting them hold me back. But God just seemed to say, "Let it go. You are forgiven and I love you." It felt amazing, to be so.. free.

 

Well, I really like this word and I named my blog after it because when I came back from camp, I seemed to glow with happiness.. much like giving off color. So I like to think that we should be so happy with Christ's joy that we are iridescent. 

 

          "But every once in a while 

you find someone who's iridescent,       

     and when you do, nothing will ever compare."

Wildfire. ♥

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Nothing by The Script

The Script has become my favorite band. :)

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Looking for Alaska by John Green

 Absolutely mind blowing book. I loved it. John Green is definitely one of my favorite authors. There were so many memorable quotes in the book. The characters were memorable and the setting sang out fun, friendship, love, and heartache. Their adventures made you want to live life out loud. It definitely made you think of the Great Perhaps. But that's all life is, isn't it? A Great Perhaps. A maybe. A sometimes. A full out blown adventure. Maybe I have a romanticized view of the world.. but it's so much better than being sad and gloomy. It makes me love and totally have an appetite for living. And that's what makes me different. I love to read and lose myself in a story. I like to sing and dance around my room. I like to hang out with my friends and cause mischief. But in Looking for Alaska... Its shows that friends, they really are all you have sometimes. Sometimes its good  to bend the rules and have fun. You only live once, live it up! I love this book. Truly. It's just such a good read. It made me cry. And it made me laugh and want to go out. It showed me how having friends, real ones, is. I am truly always looking for my inner Alaska. ♥

         "I've done some calculations and I've determined

that you're full of shit."

Colonel (Looking For Alaska)

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Being Somebody.

 You always wonder what it take for someone to notice you. You feel small and unimportant. But the thing is, it's not about how much money you have, where you've been, or how long it'll take to get there. The important part is have you worked hard for what you have, where you're going, and enjoying the ride on the way there. Being proud of who you are. To me, just shining and being happy through the worst of circumstances.. that is what makes your stronger. I think scars are beautiful. Both emotional and physical, because they are the things that you learn and hurt from. They make you who you are. People are always saying that to be somebody is to be happy. Being happy is a state of being. If you want to be happy, then be. That's all it takes. You think you have to be some extravagant human being and be impossibly good looking.. what ever happened to loving who you are? NO ONE is perfect. We all have our imperfections. But isn't it those same "imperfections" that make us beautiful and unique? I think so. EVERYONE is beautiful in their own way. There is good to everyone. I know this for a fact. Sometimes you have to just dig a little deeper to find it.. but it's definitely there. So on the note of being somebody? Being YOURSELF, that's being somebody.



Wildfire. ♥

Somebody by Bridgit Mendler

My theme song, I'm gonna be somebody. ♥


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Fuckin' Perfect by P!nk

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, missundaztood
Miss "no way it's all good"
It didn't slow me down
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I'm still around...

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me

You're so mean
When you talk
About yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices
In your head
Make them like you
Instead
So complicated
Look how big you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred

Such a tired game
It's enough
I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
See you same

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing

You're fuckin' perfect to me
The world stares while I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and I tried tried
But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cuz they're everywhere
They don't like my genes, they don't get my hair
Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?

Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less then, fuckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing you're fuckin' perfect, to me
You're perfect
You're perfect
Pretty, pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less then, fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing you're fucking perfect to me


Daae.♥

Losing Focus

I got a smack in the face today. You can't fix EVERYTHING. It was if this man was described everything I had been doing. I had my priorities mixed up.

My list went like this:

1. Alex ( My Boyfriend)
2. Friends
3. Family
4. School
5. God

Today helped my realized that my list needed to look like this:

1. God
2. Family
3. School
4. Friends
5. Alex ♥

 I remember at the beginning of the year.. My eyes were set on college. I had straight A's. I was understanding everything. I was doing so good. Now, I daydream in class, doodle, struggle to stay awake, and not do my homework. My grades fell to B's and I'm struggling in math. I am acting out in class.. and I have just been falling out of my goals. I've decided to try to finish out the semester as strong as I can, considering finals are next week. Then I'm going to go into the second semester strong, and I'm going to finish it strong. I'm going to reestablish my goals. I think that I can maintain my relationship with my boyfriend, who  I am falling in love with, with my friends, and keep my grades up. I CAN DO IT. I just need help focusing. I just need help.. I need to turn my life around, before I hit rock bottom.

              Lose not yourself in a far off time, 

seize the moment that is thine.

Johann Friedrich Von Schiller

Daae.♥

Caught in the Middle

 I reside in a group of friends. I am what you call the middle man. The person that everyone likes and is friends with, while they all hate each other. Let's just say, I HATE, no LOATHE drama. It solves nothing and puts people through a lot more than necessary. People's inability to let go of things does not make them stronger. It weakens them. They spend so much time dragging around the extra baggage. I mean, is it not sensible to let go of it? Would you not want to lighten your load? That to me, seems like common sense. But then again, what in this world makes sense? Not a whole lot. But, alas.. Some of our friendships have ended. But you lose the friends you need losing and find others along the way. That's life. I think the most important thing is to just be happy with yourself. I think your opinion of yourself, deep inside.. not what you tell people. But so what if you get hurt? It's better to take a chance, then to watch it pass you by. Life doesn't wait for you.

                I'm just a little bit caught in the middle;
life is a maze, and love is a riddle.

   Unknown 

Daae.♥