Fuckin' Perfect by P!nk

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, missundaztood
Miss "no way it's all good"
It didn't slow me down
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I'm still around...

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me

You're so mean
When you talk
About yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices
In your head
Make them like you
Instead
So complicated
Look how big you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred

Such a tired game
It's enough
I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
See you same

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing

You're fuckin' perfect to me
The world stares while I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and I tried tried
But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cuz they're everywhere
They don't like my genes, they don't get my hair
Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?

Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less then, fuckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing you're fuckin' perfect, to me
You're perfect
You're perfect
Pretty, pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less then, fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing you're fucking perfect to me


Daae.♥

Losing Focus

I got a smack in the face today. You can't fix EVERYTHING. It was if this man was described everything I had been doing. I had my priorities mixed up.

My list went like this:

1. Alex ( My Boyfriend)
2. Friends
3. Family
4. School
5. God

Today helped my realized that my list needed to look like this:

1. God
2. Family
3. School
4. Friends
5. Alex ♥

 I remember at the beginning of the year.. My eyes were set on college. I had straight A's. I was understanding everything. I was doing so good. Now, I daydream in class, doodle, struggle to stay awake, and not do my homework. My grades fell to B's and I'm struggling in math. I am acting out in class.. and I have just been falling out of my goals. I've decided to try to finish out the semester as strong as I can, considering finals are next week. Then I'm going to go into the second semester strong, and I'm going to finish it strong. I'm going to reestablish my goals. I think that I can maintain my relationship with my boyfriend, who  I am falling in love with, with my friends, and keep my grades up. I CAN DO IT. I just need help focusing. I just need help.. I need to turn my life around, before I hit rock bottom.

              Lose not yourself in a far off time, 

seize the moment that is thine.

Johann Friedrich Von Schiller

Daae.♥

Caught in the Middle

 I reside in a group of friends. I am what you call the middle man. The person that everyone likes and is friends with, while they all hate each other. Let's just say, I HATE, no LOATHE drama. It solves nothing and puts people through a lot more than necessary. People's inability to let go of things does not make them stronger. It weakens them. They spend so much time dragging around the extra baggage. I mean, is it not sensible to let go of it? Would you not want to lighten your load? That to me, seems like common sense. But then again, what in this world makes sense? Not a whole lot. But, alas.. Some of our friendships have ended. But you lose the friends you need losing and find others along the way. That's life. I think the most important thing is to just be happy with yourself. I think your opinion of yourself, deep inside.. not what you tell people. But so what if you get hurt? It's better to take a chance, then to watch it pass you by. Life doesn't wait for you.

                I'm just a little bit caught in the middle;
life is a maze, and love is a riddle.

   Unknown 

Daae.♥