My Happy Songs!! :D

Woah Oh! by Forever the Sickest Kids

Pop Rocks by Fight Fair

The Lost Get Found by Britt Nicole


These are just a few of my Happy Songs!! I just wanted to make up for not posting in so long!! Sorry!!

LOVE FEARLESSLY! HOPE FOREVER! AND DREAM OF A BETTER TOMORROW!
Love,
Beautifully Disturbed

I AM SUPER SORRY!!

Like seriously, how long has it been since I have made a post?! I like totally forgot about my blog!! Terrible since no one even reads this crap or really cares whats going on in a hormone raging teenage girl. Anyways.. I went out with this guy named Chase. I like fell in love with him(pretty pathetic actually..) He treated me like crap and broke up with me. Then 6 days later I get a text saying I miss you, I'm such an idiot and I had a dream that we were back together again and Blah, Blah, Blah.. And me being the gullible, desperate, stupid, love-sick person I am.. fell for it. We went out ONE day before he broke up with me.. AGAIN!! And then he was all like can we still be friends and another stupid choice.. I SAID YES!!(seriously, at this point I don't know what I was thinking..) And now he "loves me and you are my favorite person in the world ,but I am in love with my ex-girlfriend, Maddy, and hey your friend Devon is pretty cute, eh?" I want to kill him! He is soooo blind. And then I said Devon had a boyfriend and he said he was gonna take her from him, mess with her, and then dump her. AND I CALL HIM MY BEST FRIEND I AM SOOO FUCKING STUPID!!!

P.S. He is a pretty good guy, I just needed to rant. AND he is my best friend. He's just been through a lot and his head isn't on straight.

P.P.S. That is a picture of him. Pretty cute, eh?
LOVE FEARLESSLY! HOPE FOREVER! AND DREAM OF A BETTER TOMORROW!
Love,
Beautifully Disturbed

Five Minutes To Midnight by Boys Like Girls

LOVE FEARLESSLY! HOPE FOREVER! AND DREAM OF A BETTER TOMORROW!
Love,
Beautifully Disturbed

Dear Maria, Count Me In by All Time Low

LOVE FEARLESSLY! HOPE FOREVER! AND DREAM OF A BETTER TOMORROW!
Love,
Beautifully Disturbed

Nothing quite like love

Now This Guy Is Fearless!

There is something to say about a guy that would do this. You can think he is homosexual or you can think he is fearless! I think that this is an example of an amazing guy who is so comfortable in his own skin and he doesn't care what anyone else thinks. Now this ladies and gentlemen, is an example of being fearless!

What Would You Do For A Klondike Bar? Contest!!

I am going to host a contest! If anyone actually reads this blog. Here is the rules:
1. You can enter as many times as you want!
2. Leave a comment on my blog under this post telling me what you would do for a Klondike Bar.
3. If you win. I will promote you're blog on my blog, myspace, and youtube for an entire month.
4. No purchase necessary.
5. Have Fun! AND BE CREATIVE!!!!

Finals Put The F in Fun!

Total sarcasm right there. I have so many "Study Guides". Study Guides were invented by an evil teacher who had no life and therefore wanted to make sure their students didn't either. And thus, the "Study Guide" was born. I mean seriously, who studies besides the over zealous nerds? I get good grades on homework and tests and have probably never studied in my life. Bad Habit I know.. You can't teach an old dog new tricks they say. So here is an acronym for the wretched torture device:

F: Freak
I: I
N: Never
A: Actually
L: Learned
S: Stuff!!

Good Luck on your finals Calvary!!!!!!

Please MTV Pimp My Blog!

LOL. Anyways I gave my blog a little blind makeover. :) Summer is almost here and I am going into High School!! Yay! not really.. but whos complaining? I renamed my blog fearless because that is how I feel. FEARLESS!!!! I feel pretty happy right now. I mean who doesn't feel happy after spending $300 at the mall and getting Starbucks? Seriously.. I am addicted to Carmel Frappuchinos. I need help. Do they have therapy for these kind of things?? I got a new bag for like the last week of school. Dumb I know. IT WAS CUTE! I am stoked for graduation. My dress is blue and white. =P So on one more note. LOVE FEARLESSLY! HOPE FOREVER! AND DREAM OF A BETTER TOMORROW!

A time to love and a time to hate. A time for war and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:8

Fearless by Taylor Swift

His Favorite Christmas Story by Capital Lights

I posted this song a long time ago.. But I like it.. Even if it isn't Christmas.. So shut up and deal with it. =P

Movie Review - The Uninvited

The Uninvited

Emily Browning is personally one of my favorite actresses. I also think she would have made a perfect Bella in Twilight. In Uninvited two sisters are struck by disaster when their sick mother is killed in an fire accident. Becoming depressed, Anna (Emily Browning), slits her wrists trying to kill her self and ultimately completely forgetting what happened that evening. Finally being released from the Psychiatric Ward, Anna heads home to get some answers. Only to find out that her dad has been involved romantically with their mom's nurse. Anna begins to see strange things such as her dead mother telling her that her death was no accident. Anna heads out to talk to a former boyfriend only to find out he has broken his spine and died. Becoming even more suspicious the two sisters are even more sure the nurse is behind this. Ultimately, Anna gets sedated and thinks her dad's girlfriend is trying to kill her, while her dad was away on business. Alex, trying to protect her sister, kills Rachel (The Nurse) and stuffs her in the trash can. Their dad comes home and looks at Anna seeing blood everywhere asked her what happened. She told him Rachel was really Mildred Kemp. A nanny who had become romantically obsessed with a father after the wife mysteriously dies. Killing his three children just to have him to herself. She began to defend her sister saying, "She had to do it Dad! Rachel sedated us and was trying to kill us!" Her dad was appalled saying," Anna. Alex is dead she died last year in the fire!" This is when Anna looks in the glass door seeing herself covered in blood with a knife in her hand. She runs to the old boathouse and remembers everything. Her seeing Rachel and her dad having an affair, and also remembers the feeling of wanting to kill them. She went to get gasoline to burn them. She doesn't turn the knob all the way off on accident causing it to leak. She hurries out the door and runs into her sister who accidentally knocks a candle onto the ground. Their mother calls for them and Alex goes to her and then the boathouse blows up. She remembers pushing her former boyfriend off the cliff since he had followed her that night. She is getting into a police car to return to the Psychiatric Ward, showing no remorse. When she returns the lady welcomes her home saying she is glad to have someone to share her stories with again. And as she shuts the door it says Mildred Kemp. This explaining where she got the stories from. Her psychiatrist asks her how she is and she says she did exactly what he told her to do. She finished what she started.

This summarizing the movie. It was fantastic with twists around every corner. And I personally and highly recommend it.

Back Around by Demi Lovato

A Little Too Not Over You by David Archuleta

Cheating Myself by School Boy Humor

One of my favorite bands :)

Yet Another Poem

What About Me?

What about me?
What about you?
What about everything we've been through?
What about life that turns so cold?
Why do we always choose that road?
Where do we go when its done?
How do we know we've found the one?
What about today?

Check me out on poetry.com!

This is one one of my poems:

Till Death Do Us Part

She mixed her blood and her tears,
In hopes to chase away all her fears.
And as the dark drew near,
she cried one last tear.
She took off her disguise,
And apologized for all the heart break and lies.
And then she whispered one last prayer,
Silently wishing you were there.
To hold her hand,
And understand.
Instead she lie there broken and lost,
For she had yet to pay the cost.
And as she breathed her final breath,
She realized she loved you till the death.

Feelings (Great, I Know..)

Have you ever felt like your friends have suddenly abadoned you? Like suddenly you've been replaced? Like you were gone for one day and you were completely detacthed from everything you knew and were comfortable with? And that your normal tormentors have kicked it up a notch? And suddenly you just maybe don't feel worth much anymore? That is exactly how I feel right now. I just think I need to rely on myself now. Normally, when Alex, Zach, and Timmy torture me in Algebra I, I react by either yelling at them to stop, being sarcastic, and hitting their hands away from me. Today, I just ignored them and that seemed to encourage them more. They would say things like I think you're ugly or, eew do you have a zit? I just chanted to myself, "Breathe and Believe". It actually helped me. Yesterday my dad bought me a bikini, but I didn't want to wear it because lets face it. I kill myself with modesty. After I put it on though to at first please my dad. Then, I saw myse aboutlf in it. I am really insecure about my looks. I actually liked myself in it. It made me feel more comfortable with myself. I don't know who I am going to talk to now at school. I feel like sort of a loner. I just don't understand why people are so mean. I feel alone. I guess that is just the way the world works sometimes. I wish the person meant for me would come soon. I have a feeling I am about to hit my ultimate low.

Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Ephesians 4:32

Not Meant To Be by Theory Of A Deadman

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing that if I give that to you
I might just disappear

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our lives

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
You could building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

Cold As You by Taylor Swift

You have a way of coming easily to me.
And when you take, you take the very best of me.
So I start a fight 'cause I need to feel somethin'
And you do what you want 'cause I'm not what you wanted.

(CHORUS)
Oh, what a shame.
What a rainy ending given to a perfect day.
Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say.
And now that I'm sittin' here thinkin' it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you.

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray.
And I stood there lovin' you and washed them all away.
And you come away with a great little story of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you.

(CHORUS)
Oh, what a shame.
What a rainy ending given to a perfect day.
So just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say.
And now that I'm sittin' here thinkin' it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you.

You never did give a damn thing, honey.
But I cried, cried for you.
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you.
(Died for you)

Oh, what a shame.
What a rainy ending give to a perfect day. Every smile you fake is so condescending.
Counted all the scars you made.
Now that I'm sittin her thinkin' it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you

Random

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This is Bob. Bob will take over the world!!! :)

The Climb by Miley Cyrus

This is the only song I really like by Miley Cyrus but this song inspires me. It also a reason I have to guard my heart.

White Horse by Taylor Swift

Too late to catch me now.

I am going to Kill HIM!

Ok Ian is driving me up my wall. He just is pissing me off to no end. If he doesn't kill himself first, I will. Ever heard of foot in your mouth? Well, let me introduce you to foot in your ass!!! I mean he sounds just like me. I don't want to go on like this; Blah, Blah, Blah! Ok.. Sorry about the rant but seriously.. UGH! He is like three french fries short of a Happy Meal or something. He is making me relive the past. I need to be looking forward with my life. And the sappy thing is.. I still love that idiot. But I can't do this anymore. He is like an emotional rollercoaster or something. I just hope that he knows where to get off. And as for God? By the looks of it he seems to have walked that distance away from Him too.

Don’t befriend angry people or associate with hot-tempered people, or you will learn to be like them and endanger your soul.
Proverbs 22: 24-25

This is why I have to move along.

Tragedy..

I have been grounded for like three weeks and haven't talked to Ian. He gave up on me. I guess I understand but, it's killing me.. I don't really have much to say. I guess I'll just have to move on. I assume he already has. He is a great guy and will do well in the world. And I am sure he will do even better without someone like me holding him back. I guess it turned out for the best. But I won't forget. Like I am sure he has already forgotten about me.

Broken Hearted,
ForevrDreaming13

Chapter 1 See You Soon Jaime..

Chapter 1

I will never forget the look in her eyes as she took her final breath. It was as if she knew and understood everything. That wasn't what got to me though. It was her final words that struck me to the core. She looked at me with her soft brown eyes and whispered, "It is written John. It always has been."
Then she closed her eyes and I lost her forever. Those first few months without her were hard. She had been my light guiding me through the darkness, Without her, I was broken, lost, and alone. I don't know how many days I spent wallowing in my room, and her funeral had sent me over the edge. I still couldn't except the fact she was gone. The image of Jaime, my Jaime, lying cold, dead, and lifeless. That image still haunts me to this day. I don't think she would have wanted it to be like that. She would have wanted me to remember her alive and happy, with me. That year was filled with tears. The times were tough but, it reminded me of how we first met.
I had known Jaime since third grade. We were friends and even dated in grade school. I had got a big head and treated her wrong. She broke it off and I blew her off. I loved her for awhile but then started to falling for Belinda. Belinda was a flirt and I should have known better. It was about seventh grade when I became the cool kid. About eighth grade I had the walk, talk, and just about everything else down. But I was too stupid to see the way Jaime still loved me.
Jaime was well liked and grade school but in Junior High, people began to discover there had to be a chain of command. The girls would never admit that they were jealous of her natural beauty. She became an outcast and I enjoyed her pain.
Time went by and she began looking at me with pity. I began to become angry. I remember spending hours trying to comprehend why she took pity on me. I had everything. I was so disturbed by the ordeal that I confronted her about it. "What's your issue?" I asked angrily.
"Issue?" She looked at me confused.
"You look like you feel sorry for me. Why?"
"You don't have faith."
"What's there to have faith in?"
"Everything."
"Like what?"
"Is there wind?"
"Well, yeah."
"God is like wind, I can't see Him but I can feel Him and I know He is there."
"What do you feel, Jaime?"
"Everything you don't."
That made me so angry. How did she know what I felt? I didn't know it then, but I was about to be pulled out of the black hole called "my life" ans showed something so much better. Hope.

Don't Trust Me by 3Oh!3

Next post will be the first chapter of my book.

Just A Dream by Carrie Underwood

You by Switchfoot

A Walk to Remember is my favorite movie..

I am writing a new book.

Take no offense Ian. The two main characters of this book is John and Jaime. I will give you a sneak preview of the book in the next post. The name of this book is See You Soon, Jaime. And here is your warning.





WARNING: THIS IS NOT MY USUAL MATERIAL! IT IS GOING TO BE A CHICK FLICK BOOK! SO THERE WILL BE EMOTIONAL STUFF. IF YOU DO NOT LIKE THAT KIND OF STUFF, DO NOT READ THE NEXT POST. OK. THANKS.

Dam Dadi Do by Nightcore

I Don't Care by Apocalypita

I try to make it through my life
In my way
There's you
I try to make it through these lies
That's all I do

Just don't deny it
Just don't deny it
And deal with it
Yeah deal with it

You try to break me
You want to break me
Bit by bit
That's just part of it

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care
I don't care
And all the things you left behind
I don't care
I don't care

[Cello solo]

I try to make you see my side
Always try to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That's all they do
I'm getting tired of this shit
I got no room when it's like this
But you won't admit
Just deal with it


So, if you were dead or still alive
I don't care
I don't care
And all the things you left behind
I don't care
I don't care

(Nothing you care about)
(Nothing you care about)
(You won't be there for me)
(You won't be there for me)

[Piano Solo]

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care
I don't care
And all the things you left behind
I don't care
I don't care

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care (Nothing you care about)
I don't care (Nothing you care about)
And all the things you left behind
I don't care (You won't be there for me)
I don't care
At all

My Life Would Suck Without You by Kelly Clarkson

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

(Chorus)
Cuz we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid
For telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong
For tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way I found out I'm nothing without you

(Chorus)

Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you,
But I can't let you go,
Oh yeah

Cuz we belong together now, (yeah yeah)
Forever united here somehow, (yeah)
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Cuz we belong (yeah) together now (together now), (yeah)
Forever united here somehow, (yeah)
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Aaah!!!

I got nominated for Who's Who Registry of Academic Excellence-Middle School Edition!!!!!!!!!! I will know if my application was accepted in two weeks. I cannot wait. Basically it is this book that lists all these students who have good grades and all that jazz. The great thing is that you can get a lot of scholarship opportunities. The really cool thing is that it is Washington D.C. based. Maybe there is some Obama in my future, eh? Eh?


On another note: Last Friday was our softball playoff game. We lost. :'(

On yet another note: I am going to San Diego this Weekend. We are going to bring my dog Lucy. We are going to take her to the dog beach and park. Then my parents are going to go out to dinner just the two of them, leaving me at the apartment with my dog Lucy and hours of entertainment with Left 4 Dead. WHOO!


And know it is time for another Bible Verse:

For the word of the LORD is right and true; he is faithful in all he does. The LORD loves righteousness and justice; the earth is full of his unfailing love.
Psalm 33:4-5

The Middle by Jimmy Eat World

Crush by David Archuleta

I should tell Chandler. Or am I being stupid?

Framing Hanley (Nixon is Amazing!!!)

Some Random Things From My Random Mind.. Again..

"Tell the voices to shut up! I can't hear!" -ForevrDreaming13

Lollipop by Framing Hanley

Such a funny video. Got to love the people trying to get the fat guy.. I mean that is just comedy right there.

Underneath This Smile by Hilary Duff

My theme song for the moment.


What I'm standing on is sinking in
And I don't have a clue how to get off of it
But when I look at you there is hope
It's like you see the sadness in my eyes
You read the blue between the lines
You could be the one to hold me when I wanna cry

Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the while
I'm hanging on
Cause that is all I know
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?
I've been hiding out for miles
Underneath this smile

I have walked this earth with broken bones
I've been keeping secrets under all these lights
But when you're around my defenses go
You don't let me run away from you
You don't let me twist and turn the truth
It feels as if I'm naked when you're standing in the room

Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the while
I'm hanging on instead of letting go
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?
I've been hiding out too long
Underneath this smile
Underneath this smile
Oh, yeah

Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
All the while
I'm hanging on instead of letting go
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?
Underneath this smile
Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?
I've been hiding out for miles
Underneath this
Underneath this
Underneath this smile
What I'm standing on is sinking in

What I Need To Do More Often..

To Anyone Who Really Cares..

Okay.. Basically this is my blog and the other one is Ian's. He lives in Louisiana and I live in California so this is how we keep in touch and chat. We do talk and text a lot but this is soooo much more entertaining.. o_o So this is just basically are randomness. And because Ian is my best friend and loves me! Don't you Ian?? You better say yes or I am going to come to Louisiana and kick your butt... XOXO. (Psh! I am such a girl sometimes!)

Deeper Meanings

Okay. The weirdest thing just happened to me. I was on YouTube and I came across one of my subscribers had a profile picture that just spoke to me. I have the picture posted below. You know how I was sad about what happened between me and Chandler? Well, I had sort of given up. But then I saw that picture and I just felt compelled to text him this message:

I know you won't reply to this because you hate me but I just wanted you to know.. I am not giving up on you.

I know it sounds crazy but I just had to do it. It might have been stupid and when I go back to school he is probably going to embarrass me with it. But I am fine because I like myself for who I am and I don't care what anyone thinks. And if he has changed like I think he has changed, we might get back together. All I know is that it will happen exactly how it is supposed to. And I will be a stronger person from it.


So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.
Matthew 7:12

I am not giving up..

I am back!! With funny Kitteh Pictures!!

Tip me over and pour me out! (Or something like that.. Hey don't judge me.. I was going to sing Happy Birthday to Ian and I forgot the words. Yep.. I am that special..)












OMG!! It is just like when I chugged that monster!! I was up for days!!















I Knew it..













Look Ian! It is Left 4 Dead kitteh Zombies!! Beware!!















I know exactly how you feel..^_^















Bad day.. That is what my dad is like in the morning.. -_-













I am pro at pretending to be a ninja..

I am hyper! ^_^

I had a lemon Popsicle and it was like setting off a crazy bomb! Now I am talking about things no one cares about.. Oh, wait! I already do that! Silly me! I am soooooo hyper! <_> I can't control myself!! AH!! INSANITY TAKING OVER!!!!!!!!!!!! Eek! You better call the crazy cops because I heading straight to the loony bin!

On another more sane side of me: My mom brought me home white roses today! She brought them because I was sad about Chandler. I know I am pathetic and should get over him.. Blahidy Blah, Blah, Blah.. But I am not over it so I continue to be sad. I lost the whole point of this post.. Oh! I am going to post a poem!!



Lost Without Feeling

She mixed her blood and her tears;
In hopes to chase away all her fears.
She lied there broken and lost,
For she knew she had to pay the horrible cost.
And as she breathed her final breath,
She realized she loved you till the death.






Quite depressing.. I was feeling a bit emotional then. Ah, well I am off to go find funny cat pictures..^_^

Why by Secondhand Serenade

My Favorite song by Secondhand Serenade

No I DIDN't!

I didn't adopt that wolf. SHE did!

Happy Birthday Ian!

Well you are 15 now. Yesterday you weren't to excited about turning 15 but, today you seem better today. So happy birthday. I am not mad at you for being older than me. (Even though I just caught up!) But you are so much taller than me! I feel like such a midget.. Anyways I hope you can find your mom to give you ten dollars for Left 4 Dead! (Wow! Your mom is like impossible to find!) I am hungry but I am to lazy to go eat something.. GAH!!!


Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life—in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing.
Philippians 2:14-16

Well guess what folks?

Thats right I'm 15 as of now. Is that a big thing? To some people i guess, I mean, later this year I get a permit. So far I've gotten A red iPod nano (YAY) and I got two twilight books (1st and 4th) later I plan to get Left 4 Dead at best buy so i can kill as many zombies as I want. Gonna be awesome. So I guess my birthday isnt as bad as I though after all?

It's Not Over by Secondhand Serenade

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

Dead Poetic-Bury The Difference (My fav song)

Bury all the differences between us. When I still can't find the air,
You keep the toxins flowing for me,
And I'll bury all the differences between us.
And I still can't help but care for moving mountains,
But your, your head's held high again.

You will find me out. You will find everything.

We all, we just battle ourselves. We just battle ourselves again.

Bury all the differences between us, that same mechanic sound.
That keeps on ringing for days and days.
And you're standing like a clueless titan falls.
And everything around falls right down on you.
With your head held high again.

You will find me out. You will find everything.

We all, we just battle ourselves. We just battle ourselves again.

And there's a storm cloud waiting over,
On the land that's sinking at the,
At the bottom of these buildings again.
With your head held high again.

You will find me out. You will find everything.

We all, we just battle ourselves. We just battle ourselves again.

Your Call by Secondhand Serenade

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Heels Over Head by Boys Like Girls

I got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
Gonna cash it right in for a new Mercedes
You were worth the hundred thousand miles
But you couldn't stay awhile
I got your little brown shirt in my bottom drawer baby
And your little white socks in the top drawer
You were always leaving your shit around
And gone without a sound

Yeah I'm the first to fall and the last to know
Where'd you go?

Now I'm heels over head
I'm hangin' upside down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound

I got a first class ticket to a night all alone
And a front row seat up right by the phone
Cause you're always on my mind
And I'm running out of time
I've got your hair on my pillow and your smell in my sheets
And it makes me think about you with the sand in your feet
Is it all you thought it'd be?
You mean everything to me

But I'm the first to fall and the last to know
And where'd you go?

Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound
And when you hit the coast
I hope you think of me
And how I'm stuck here with the ghost of what we used to be

You're burnin' bridges baby
Burnin' bridges, making wishes
Yeah you're burnin' bridges baby
Burnin' bridges, making wishes
You're burnin' bridges baby
Burnin' bridges, making wishes
Yeah you're burnin' bridges baby
Burnin' bridges, making wishes

You're a chance taker, heartbreaker
Got me wrapped around your finger
Chance taker, heartbreaker
Got me wrapped around your finger

I got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
Gonna cash it right in for a new Mercedes
If I drive a hundred thousand miles
Would you let me stay a while?

Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside-down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound
And when you hit the coast
I hope you think of me
And how I'm stuck here with the ghost of what we used to be

Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside-down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound
And when you hit the coast
Maybe you'll finally see
And then you'll turn it all around and you'll come back to me

Deep Heartaches

Hmm.. Life. Such an interesting concept. Tenacious I must say that was quite a bomb to be dropped. I must say I am actually feeling a bit emotional right now. Like a time bomb waiting for the perfect moment to go off. I have actually really love the band Secondhand Serenade. He is amazing. ^_^ My favorite song by him is Maybe. (Posted below) I have discovered a couple of other musicians I also enjoy. I have come to really like the Academy Is.. and the Perfect Autumn. Remember how I used to be overly obsessed with the Jonas Brothers? I am not any more. I mean I like their music and appreciate them as people. I am kind of over them though. I seem to have been living in a dream recently. But its a cold hard road when you wake up. But till then I am a dreamer.

P.S. I made that picture. Do you like it?


So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature.
Galations 5:16

And the bomb droppes in one more location than one

rawr. Thats the satement of the year of 2009, rawr. So in what do we have faith? Petty things such as intuition? But I have a glossary of dirty words for people just like people in my school. I Reserve the words. But ohhhhhhhh, man did they just cross the line, Well being a freshman, nobody expected this not even me. Well, its kinda akward to say, but alot of freshman and sophmores, juniors, and seniors, have lost something they should've saved for marrige. I was complentating on that fact in 3rd hour. And of course I got In trouble for "day-dreaming" jeez. But for me it was...just such... a SHOCK. And i hope its none of my friends, execpt for John. I feel really bad for john. The worst part... it was HIS decision. I remember what he was telling me perfectly. It was.... just wrong perspective in my mind. I dont get it. Its just so.... wrong. Right now im the only person in study hall which feels like survivor right now. Ugh Is all Ican say for this place. Be so glad when I can drive myself home....UUgghhhhhhh. Ctrl+Alt+Del
Hahhahahahahh RAWR. I'm too hyper to day to be sitting

*500 hundred laps around the world later*

okay that took like what? 8 seconds?
no probelm at all.anyway i have a song for the year. well actually two
Taste The Red Hands-Dead Poetic
Bury The Difference-Dead Poetic
GL AND HF AND GS AND XD AND everything else I didn't have room to say.
but whatever. Look at me rambel on. hah.
So, life continues on, barley. Its COLD outside. Well, I guess thats all I have to say today. maybe later. The inter is still a weird invention
rawr

Dedicated To Chandler

Maybe by Secondhand Serenade

2 Followers?

Wow. I don't even have the gadget thingie up and I have two followers. I must be fool. As I said before I am sick so I have nothing to do so I have been going on Club Penguin obsessively! I hate to say it but I miss school! I miss not throwing stuff at the teachers when their backs our turned and singing in class! But what I miss the most is staring at people. Why do I do that? Simple it makes people feel awkward! And if I didn't do all those crazy things.. What would people talk about? I am such a dorkizzle as Dayzha likes to say. It is weird but I have been having these weird dreams about my ex-boyfriend, Chandler, dating Kristen. A sign maybe? I don't know but I hope not because that would just be weird. And now I am going to tell you my Top 6 T.V. shows:

1. Gossip Girl
2. Secret Life of the American Teenager
3. Kyle XY
4. 90210
5. Ghost Whisperer
   
6. Heroes

[The Children of Abraham] To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, "If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
John 8:31-32

Can you hear me? I can't hear you..

I am very sick. I have bronchitis, an ear infection in each ear, and a sinus infection. So I can hardly hear, my throat kills me when I talk, and I can't breathe! It is nice to have my parents actually taking the time to take care of me and not just going off and doing their own thing. I have had a different beagle sleep with me in my bed every night so far. First was Lucy, Last night was Sophie, and tonight will be Snickers. I actually love naps right now. I am so tired. I have been obsessively watching Prince Caspian and Mamma Mia though. I actually like the movie better with commentary. I am odd aren't I?


In my anguish I cried to the LORD, and he answered by setting me free. The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?
Psalm 118:5-6

One More Day by Diamond Rio

Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me
It could be for anything
I didn't ask for money
Or a mansion in Malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl
Then I'd unplug the telephone
And keep the TV off
I'd hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what I'd do, with one more day with you

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

Leave me wishing still, for one more day
Leave me wishing still, for one more day

Bad Girlfriend by Theory Of A Deadman

My Girlfriend's a dick magnet My Girlfriend's gotta have it
She's hot, can't stop, up on stage, doing shots, Tip the man he'll
Ring the bell, get her drunk she'll scream like hell.
Dirty girl, gettin' down, dance with guys from outta town.
Grab her ass, actin' tough. Mess with her, she'll fuck you up.
No one really knows if she's drunk or if she's stoned, but she's
Comin' back to my place tonite!

She likes to shake her ass she grinds it to the beat
She likes to pull my hair when I make her grind her teeth
I like to strip her down she's naughty to the end
You know what she is, no doubt about it
She's a bad, bad girlfriend!

Red thong, Party's on, Love this song, sing along.
Come together, leave alone, see you later back at home
No one really knows if she's drunk or is she's stoned
But she's coming back to my place tonite. I say
No one really knows just how far she's gonna go,
But I'm gonna find out later tonite

She likes to shake her ass she grinds it to the beat
She likes to pull my hair when I make her grind her teeth
I like to strip her down she's naughty to the end
You know what she is, no doubt about it
She's a bad, bad girlfriend!

Doesn't take her long to make things right.
But does it make her wrong to
Have the time of her life. the time of her life
My girlfriend's a dick magnet My girlfriend's gotta have it

She's a gold digger now you figure out it's over, pull the trigger.
Futures finished, there it went, savings gone,
The money spent

I look around and all I see is, no good, bad and ugly,
Man she's hot and fixed to be, the future
Ex-Miss Connolly!

She likes to shake her ass she grinds it to the beat
She likes to pull my hair when I make her grind her teeth
I like to strip her down she's naughty to the end
You know what she is, no doubt about it
She's a bad, bad girlfriend!

She's a bad, bad girlfriend.
She's a bad, bad girlfriend.

Lala Land by Demi Lovato

I am confident
But I still have my moments
Baby, that's just me
I'm not a supermodel
I still eat McDonald's
Baby, that's just me

Well, some may say I need to be afraid
Of losing everything
Because of where I
Had my start and where I made my name
Well, everything's the same
In the la-la land machine
Machine, machine

Who said I can't wear my
Converse with my dress
Well, baby, that's just me [ah]
Who says I can't be single
And have to go out and mingle
Baby, that's not me

Well, some may say I need to be afraid
Of losing everything
'cause of where I
Had my start and where I made my name
Well, everything's the same
In the la-la land...

Tell me, do you feel the way I feel
'Cause nothing else is real
In the la-la land machine

Well, some may say I need to be afraid
Of losing everything
Because of where I
Had my start and where I made my name
Well, everything's the same
In the la-la land machine

Well, I'm not gonna change
In the la-la land machine
Well, I will stay the same
In the la-la land machine

Machine
Machine
I won't change anything in my life
I won't change anything in my life
I'm staying myself tonight
I'm staying myself tonight
La, la, la, la, la

Move Along by All-American Rejects

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong, we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]

(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

Quote of the Day

Happy Birthday Brennan!

Today is my super fawewsome cousin's birthday! He turned 15! So to commemorate this special occasion.. I am going to do something different. Since I am now 14 I am going to tell you 14 things about me:

• My favorite colors are green, orange, purple, and blue
• I am still in love with me ex-boyfriend Chandler
• I am addicted to grape mints (Love you Kacie!)
• Rachel McAdams and Lindsey Haun are my favorite actresses!
• I thing Nat Wolff is kind of cute
• I love peace and quiet
• My friend David stole my cardboard corner (I really miss my corner.. sniff, sniff)
• I love turtles (OBSESSION!)
• I like to be different
• I like to stare at people because they say stupid things.
• I love to read
• I love to write
• Someday I want to either be an author or a marine biologist
• I don't like Miley Cyrus.

I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.
John 16:33

Friend Like That by Hawk Nelson

I like it simple and I'm not a superman
I never said that I was more than that
I'm not a wannabe, I'm who I wanna be
And I intend to be how You created me

I, I need somebody on the inside
I, I want somebody who can set me free
I'm not the only one who feels like this
I've got a few others around me

Hey let me hear ya say
Make some noise if you feel this way
Hey if you got a friend like that
Hey let's scream and shout
If you know what I'm talkin' `bout
Anybody got a friend like that

I once was little and I always had a plan
You thought my friendliness was just an act
I'll be your friend indeed, and you can count on me
And I can guarantee, your friend I'll always be

I, I need somebody on the inside
I, I want somebody who can set me free
I'm not the only one who feels like this
I've got a few others around me

Hey let me hear ya say
Make some noise if you feel this way
Hey if you got a friend like that
Hey let's scream and shout
If you know what I'm talkin' `bout
Anybody got a friend like that

Does anyone out there feel alone
Can anyone hear me
Down and out, your heart is cold
It's never easy
But if you believe that there is hope
Than sing it with me

Hey let me hear ya say
Make some noise if you feel this way
Hey if you got a friend like that
Hey let's scream and shout
If you know what I'm talkin' `bout
Anybody got a friend like that
Hey let me hear ya say
Does anybody feel this way
Hey if you got a friend like that
Hey let's scream and shout
If you know what I'm talkin' `bout
Anybody got a friend like that

I, I need somebody on the inside
I, I want somebody who can set me free
I'm not the only one who feels like this
I've got a few others around me

Give Me Your Eyes by Brandon Heath

Look down from a broken sky
Traced out by the city lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight

Touch down on the cold black top
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breath in the familiar shock
Of confusion and chaos

All those people going somewhere
Why have I never cared

Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me you heart for the ones forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Step out on a busy street
See a girl and our eyes meet
Does her best to smile at me
To hide what’s underneath

There's a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie
Too ashamed to tell his wife
He's out of work, He's buying time

Pre Chorus / Chorus

I’ve been here a million times
A couple of million eyes
Just move and pass me by
I swear I never thought that I was wrong
I need a second glance
Give me a second chance
To see the way you’ve seen the people all along

Chorus

Gift of True Love

“Can I see my baby?” the happy new mother asked. When the bundle was nestled in her arms and she moved the fold of cloth to look upon his tiny face, she gasped. The doctor turned quickly and looked out the tall hospital window. The baby had been born without ears. Time proved that the baby’s hearing was perfect. It was only his appearance that was marred. When he rushed home from school one day and flung himself into his mother’s arms, she sighed, knowing that his life was to be a succession of heartbreaks. He blurted out the tragedy. “A boy, a big boy … called me a freak.” He grew up, handsome for his misfortune. A favorite with his fellow students, he might have been class president, but for that. He developed a gift, a talent for literature and music. “But you might mingle with other young people,” his mother reproved him, but felt a kindness in her heart. The boy’s father had a session with the family physician. Could nothing be done? “I believe I could graft on a pair of outer ears, if they could be procured,” the doctor decided. Whereupon the search began for a person who would make such a sacrifice for a young man. Two years went by. Then, “You are going to the hospital, Son. Mother and I have someone who will donate the ears you need. But it’s a secret,” said the father. The operation was a brilliant success, and a new person emerged. His talents blossomed into genius, and school and college became a series of triumphs. Later he married and entered the diplomatic service. “But I must know!” He urged his father, “Who gave so much for me? I could never do enough for him.” “I do not believe you could,” said the father, “but the agreement was that you are not to know … not yet.” The years kept their profound secret, but the day did come … one of the darkest days that a son must endure. He stood with his father over his mother’s casket. Slowly, tenderly, the father stretched forth a hand and raised the thick, reddish-brown hair to reveal that the mother had no outer ears. “Mother said she was glad she never let her hair be cut,” he whispered gently, “and nobody ever thought Mother less beautiful, did they?” Real beauty lies not in the physical appearance, but in the heart. Real treasure lies not in what that can be seen, but what that cannot be seen. Real love lies not in what is done and known, but in what that is done but not known.

Quote of the Day

The expert at anything was once a beginner.

An Undefined Game

Though this game is undefined there are rules. But there are also rules to these rules which are the rules are always changing. You may look but not stare. If he gives you the cold shoulder you ignore him for a week. If her stares at you give him an 'as if' look and turn away. If he asks you for help when he doesn't need it say no. If he asks you on a date you give him a nonchalant stare and say 'why not?' This is the game girls and boys constantly play with each other. There are many rules you must follow and you must always pick an 'appropriate' game partner. Seriously people. COME ON! If you like someone, tell them. Don't play the game. Be different. Stand out. Show someone how you really feel. Before its to late. Stand still and watch the Lord rescue today.


Seek good, not evil, that you may live. Then the LORD God Almighty will be with you, just as you say he is. Hate evil, love good; maintain justice in the courts. Perhaps the LORD God Almighty will have mercy on the remnant of Joseph.
Amos 5: 14-15